Naturally I'd come here to chat w/ my lovely pixie pals...I'm usually good at this but some advice and an unbias opinion would be greatly appreciated! Sorry in advance for typing a novel but I need to give you background lol.
Back in Feb/March last year, I was rebounding from ending it with my husband. I hooked up on POF a lot....then with a guy who was fun, we got together a few times but I treated him as just a piece of meat lol and felt I was likewise, which was totally fine. I started dating someone in April and was thinking I was head over heels, other guy would still text me maybe once monthly just to see how I was, just being friendly. I'd ignore it, or I'd say something short back, no biggie.
Last month my bf and I took a break, other guy texted me out of the blue because he was nearby saying he'd thought of me and I was like 'well hello!..." and hooked up with him again. I come to find out he wanted to be friends too back when, but just hadn't told me so I had moved on, the sex was an added bonus but if there wasn't sex he just genuinely still wanted to be a part of my life as just a friend. Floored, I was like okay sure, who can have enough friends? The last month, we talk all day everyday via text and will on the phone. Last week I saw him probably 4-5 times out of the week, not all of these meetings were for sex.
I was offered physical and emotional support and even cash when I thought my power was going to be turned off, with the understanding I couldn't pay back and it wasn't in exchange for sex, purely selfless. I don't ask for help and he got it out of me that I was in a bind and just wanted to help. We have both stood by our phrase "we are fuckable, not dateable" to each other, but as you guessed it, while talking about my bf and that I don't know why I still carry on with him because he's been shitty, other says he likes me, not the first time but goes on to say he'll do anything to be with me on a higher level if it was what I wanted because it is what he wants.
NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN.
But it has, I believe I like him too, more than I'd let myself admit. I'm used to being hurt, being the one bending over backwards for someone, taking care of someone, but he wants to do that for me instead.
I am treated better than anyone has treated me before with him, yes only been a month but he is adamant to prove to me he is different, he's incredibly passionate and lets me just be me.
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO?
Thanks for reading
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