i have been seeing a therapist and he had me write
down my sexual history as therapy here is my first instalment
sharing them with some one is also part of the therapy


I had a hard time with finding who i am “no i not i can't be a fag my dick gets hard
When i look at naked women “ this became my mantra i would say it to myself all the
Time. To prove it i was out all the time fucking every woman i could. But any time some
One got close to me i would run in case they found out my secret i am turned on by guys
My friends saw a stud that could have any woman. My family saw a young man whom
Just needed to meet the right girl. From 19 until my 21st birthday i was a mess inside
But had got so good at presenting a happy face no one knew then after my birthday
He walked in to my life he was stunning .my mouth went dry leg were week but i
Had a huge hard on (flash) i pictured him naked he takes hold of my dick an starts
To rub it up and down faster and faster oh my god and i cum all over his hand an arm
(Flash) shit no my head scream in denial and left work claming illness and went out
to prove my manhood

more whe i am able to