and it has only been just over a week... geez... I am at a friends place tonight.. and figured that the torture of being away had to come to an end... I needed to post... have been wanting to share something with all of you for several days... probably a good thing tho that I had some time to clear my head first... (not to mention sober up).

I hope everyone had a wonderfully fun and sexy halloween!! I know that I did. I gathered up enough courage to wear my costume... and I am happy to say that it was a big success.. I felt sexy as hell... and got loads of attention.. which I absorbed like a sponge...

Now.. for some shocking developments...

The halloween party was held at a dear friends house and about 30 people attended... lots of fun... booze... loud DJ... lights... fantasy... oh.. and twister. I had a weeeee bit tooo much to drink... but was enjoying myself to no end. Again I was the only single person... but I didn't let that get the best of me.. and was really enjoying myself.....

and then...

one of the guys attending with his wife... well... he was very flirtatious with me... and visa versa... didn't really think much of it.. until he cornered me and put my hand against his hardening crotch (yes outside of the jeans)... from that moment on.. I was doomed... I whispered at that point.. that I didn't think it was a good idea.. he was married... and I walked away...

I am only human... and after 4 1/2 years without.. gosh... my will power was giving me what for. for the following several hours... we would glide by one another a bit closer than we should.... etc... I walked into the house at one point.. sat in the living room alone trying to compose myself... when out of the corner.. I see... him in the bathroom.. light off... door open... he knows I am watching him... he calls me to him... I go.. but only to the door (my will power still hanging on)... he stands there.. within my reach.. pulls out his BEAUTIFUL hard cock.. takes my hand.. and puts my hand against him... I could only handle so much... I bent over... just enough to take his cock in my mouth... two strokes... and then stood again... took a deep breath... reminded him he is married... and that I am not up for an ass kickin.. and walked away... took every ounce of sanity I could muster..

Then.. some time later.. he catches me outside.. leads me to the side of the house... and asks me to suck on his cock... damn.. I so very much wanted to.. but knowing his wife.. and my friends were within shouting distance.. I couldn't.. I walked away.... damn.. I was trying sooo hard to resist...

A while later... he tries to get me to follow him in the house... he and I make eye contact... and I go the other way... sit with friends for all of 30 seconds and then decide to go change my costume... I get my clothes.. take them into the house.. head for the bathroom... I see him near.. and I try to get into the bathroom and shut the door.. and failed to shut it fast enough... as he pushed himself in behind me...

he shuts and locks the door... takes me in his arms... and kisses me with more passion than I have EVER felt in my entire life... my knees literately went weak.. and I sat on the edge of the tub... the perfect height... he reveals his beautiful hard cock to me again... and my resistance is short.. and futile... I tell him no.. that it isn't right... that he has too much to lose and that I do as well... that he has no idea what he has done.. that unleashing me now.. 4 1/2 year without is dangerous... he continues... and I cave... I take his cock into my mouth... complete bliss... deep throating him... a stroke or two.. then stopping.. still fighting myself for control... he wants me... really wants me... he asked to allow him to fuck me... I said no... he wanted to pleasure me... and again I refused... but I couldn't stop the desire of feeling his hot cock... and tasting his sweet lips...

then suddenly...

KNOCK KNOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT... he jumps in the bathtub and pulls the shower curtain behind him.. I wait 20 seconds and exit.. running into another room to change...

come to find out 2 of my best friends put the pieces together.. and hid to watch me run out of the room... it is an awkward situation that I put them in.. considering he is married... and his wife and him are part of my extended group....

The strangest thing... I don't feel an overwhelming amount of guilt... I know that had I had a condom... i would have continued... that when I told him "another time.. another place"... I meant it... and that the next time I see him... I plan on telling him the following "I can't be part of an affair... but if you ever find yourself come to your senses and leave that bitch of a wife.. .I will rock your world"... and I WILL tell him that....

SIGH

Anyway... I am still without a computer for now.. hope to be back online by the end of the week... no Yahoo at the moment... and only have access to email while at work....HUGS.. miss all of you... Kisses

whoa! (((Jenna)))

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yeah. i'll second that! whoa! (i'll bet it led to some serious self-induced pleasure, though )

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some fairly sordid tales, rambles, and anecdotes
Hypothetically Speaking * Something More * Cammy Interrupted * An Experimental Vacation * Masked * so..damn..hot * Thank You * My toy, his idea * no.19 Maple Lane * I Have A Surprise For You * Yesterday * In a Quiet Kitchen * help me decide * untitled prose * more untitled prose

Holy Shit Jenna!

Hope you are back online soon...

((((Jenna))))

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Clever? Nah, I ran out of that years ago. But if you find this, let me know, k?
"The road goes ever on..." ~ Tolkien

In memory of my friend skip...
Go then, there are other worlds than these

*sigh*.. I am still in a certain degree of shock... I wouldn't have ever anticipated this... and now that it has happened... I think the beast within me has been released.. I have alot of time to make up for after 4 1/2 years with virtually no sex... he didn't have a clue that awakening me in that way would do this.. my stomach is still doing butterfly flips everytime I think of the way that man kissed me... not to mention the way his hard cock felt against my tongue... I can only imagine how wonderful it would have felt in all of my other places..

How well I know that unleashed beast!

Jenna, I admire your strength of character. I hope it all works out in whatever way is best for you.

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It's no trick loving somebody at their best. Love is loving them at their worst.
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It isn't premarital sex if you have no intention of getting married.
~George Burns~


As bad as I am, I'm proud of the fact that I'm worse than I seem.
~A. DiFranco~

I have always thought that you were an amazing woman Jenna and this just cinched it for me! Many would not have been as stong as you were at that moment. I commend you for not giving into a situation that could have brought you more troubles than you could have ever wanted - no matter what your overwhelming deisre was!!!!!!

Good on ya woman!!!!

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wow!!!! awsome hun!! glad u held off liek u did, i dont think i wudda, i think ida jumped him the first sec i had a chance!!!!

~nikki

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holy crap.....whatta story....

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great story

(((((((((((jenna)))))) hang in there!!!

thanks so much all for the feedback... not entirely sure how I am going to handle the next time I see him... fortunately (or unfortunately depending on how honest I am being with myself) I don't see him very often...

Hi Jenna

You are a very strong lady to have stood up to such a temptation. I'm sure you'll do what feels right for you. Good luck ~hugs~

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I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul

Don't beat yourself up over this. He literally chased you around the house! He saw that you were fighting your emotions and ignored three or four previous "no" responses.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.

((((jenna)))) ~ as someone who's been in similar situations myself, I understand how hard it is to say no. Especially when he's chasing you. You showed strong character, but I know that's cold comfort when all you want to do is be *touched.* If there is karma in the world, I am sure some good stuff is headed your way.

((((jenna))))

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