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Almost everyone loses their first love.

It's part of growing up.

We survived, you will too.

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Well I didn't dream of diana last night but rather some random woman I have no idea who she is. I didn't even see her but kinda knew how she looked. oh man christmas eve is tough. I had dreamt of having kids with diana and decorating and giving presents to the kids. they need to develop a pill... lol

Holy crap, Dude. You are delusional!

You are being used and have not got the sense or the guts to see it for what it is. Forget your stupid dreams and forget this woman. She is destructive for you. Do not fuck her, do not be her friend. Friends don't do what she is doing to you. Move on and do it immediately! Don't wait or pine for this selfish gal.......I don't know how to say it more forcefully. If you can't walk away, I guess you deserve this shit. With that said,

Best of Luck.

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Lots of people talk and few of them know, soul of a woman was created below

I can't get through to her 'cause it doesn't permit
But I'm gonna give her everything I've got to give.

I hear your sweet voice calling
out my name
As I stare from a six foot cell
And from beyond I heard the words
Deceptively Yours

^^^Amen...... move on already!!!

Good Luck!

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My Only Two Stories Anywhere!

Afternoon Delight

Delightful Rendezvous!

Is the love I gave her in the past, gonna be enough to last, if tomorrow never comes........

Oh man, I don't know what to say. I'm not you and I am not going through it like you are right now but man...............

you've got to push yourself away from the table. Dinner's over. Say no to the dessert cart buddy.

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It takes a gutless mouse to play only when the cat's away.

No love, no friendship, can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever. ~~ Francois Mocuriac

Confucius say, "He who masturbate into cash register come into money."

An optimist looks at the glass and says it's half full. A pessimist looks at the glass and says it's half empty. A Cubs fan looks at the glass and says, "When's it gonna spill?"

Deus Impetitio Esuritori Nullus

I know a part of me really says I need to just let her go but another part of me says to stick it out. It isnt that I like the abuse or anything. I have invested so much time into her. So much of my heart and soul. She made me feel so loved. I am scared I wont ever feel it again.

Well ya wont while ya keep crapping on like this....get on with the life ffs

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Ever seen those cartoons where one of the characters has an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other? Don't listen to the part that says to stick it out.



I think I said this once before on this thread. I'll say it again:

You're in a hole. Stop digging.

Find an activity to distract you from her. If that doesn't work, find more activities. Don't leave your mind idle long enough to drift to her.

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I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters

I just can't being her friend. she says I am her best friend. This is what she says. She says she loves me and that I am the perfect guy but she just lacks the attraction that she used to have. she wants to try and get closer to me to see if it comes back. She cries about not feeling it for me. I don't know. I really wanted to marry her. I wanted to with all my heart. I freak when I think about some other guy replacing me romantically. I know I am stupid for actually waiting to see if she wants me again but the heart makes u do stupid crap I guess. So I hate to ask but I just need to know that I am a good person. I just need to know.

Listen bud,
Everyone here has told you that seeing her is a bad idea. Why aren't you listening?

she says I am her best friend- ok, you are her best friend. It doesn't mean that SHE wants to DATE you, and is in LOVE with you. Why do you want to beat your head against the wall? You DO remember Charlie Brown and Lucy pulling the football away from him don't you?

Tell me, if she loves you, why does she want to be with other guys? Because she lacks the attraction she USED to have. - YOUR words, dude. If that is the case leave her and move on. She's doesn't want to TRY and get it back, she wants to continue to USE you, and you let her.

but I just need to know that I am a good person- how will you feel like a "good person", if you try and find out from a person that is using you, and abusing you??

Never mind the abuse part, she's not abusing you..........YOU are abusing yourself.

She wants her cake and to eat it as well, looking for her Mr Perfect while keeping you dangling.

Sometimes the only way to save yourself off a burning boat is to swim through shark infested waters to safety.

Life only holds one guarantee, so stop wasting your time and hers and complete the break.

Good person? Good is as good does, not some innate sanctity, so go out and be good with someone else.

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What does she have to say?

And why don't you believe her?

She says I am a great person. She says I am the perfect combination of a guy. She says she loves me totally and completely and that i am basically her perfect mate.

Perfect mate requires a level of respect and empathy this one has not shown.

You'd be better in the middle of a pack of sharks in a feeding frenzy. It'd be honest, it'd be quick and you'd not be dragged back, and back, and back. . .

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