Its so different.. Every time..

For so long you depressed.. and scouring along the bottom. feeling like life is all game.. or your on tv or something.. You can't even form plausible thoughts. Its terrible..

But then.. in the odd chance you come across some new love. some new passion. You think clearly.. You fly on top.. Its so strange..

How can you just.. yesterday feel so terrible to sit and think of things no human should think of.. And yet the next day you can fly through it without a care in the world.. completely lost in all feelings.. And forget all the hurt that's happened..

The pain is so deep. and powerful. worse than anythings anyone should ever have to go through..

But.. the love comes along... and its gone.. there is not there but the love.. it takes over...

Its all powerful it feels like..

It scares me. truthfully. that one certain feeling.. or being can make you feel this way.. and completely heal your insides.. in such a short time.. maybe im easy.. i dunno.. But I tell ya.. I puts a new light on everything..

But then again its not a new light now is it?.. or is it?

That's the question i think... the real question..

But who knows im just a prattling fool

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