Two very wise women here suggested I write in the Advice board. So I shall.

If any of you have struggled with a sexual identiy crisis, please can you give me any suggestions? This thing is tearing me apart. To question my sexual identity at nearly 53 years old just doesn't seem right, and it is damn inconvenient.
How do I deal with wondering if I have been gay all my life but choose the wrong lifestyle, that is, straight?

If you respond (((((((((((((((((please!))))))))))))))))))) consider that my earliest sexual experiences were gay before I hardly knew what sex was, and used to try on womens clothes as recently as 20 years ago. I've been in and out of adult book stores getting bj's all my life. Hell, I'm answering my own question aren't I? I'm scared people.

P.S. Please, please if I am being a bore, a baby, an ass, whatever and bringing everybody down with my personal crap, tell me. This is supposed to be a fun board, and I'm not always very fun. I ask because I can't see myself as clearly as you can. If I'm turning people off or, worse, chasing people away, please tell me.