Well as some form of apology, i know this is not a sexual fantasy. It's just another fantasy of mine which also i have been unable to fullfill is to look into someone's eyes as they go to sleep and stroking theyre hair while snuggled up to them, and then i would spend all night just watching them sleep, stroking their hair, and maybe kissing gently so as not to disturb her. And no matter how many times i fullfilled that fantasy i would never get tired of it.