A happy thing and a rant................
Well, I have decided... I am going to go back to college!!! YAY! I will start night school on January 20th - and I am really excited! Computer Information Systems (CIS) Web Development with an AAS degree, and will hopefully follow with a BA degree sometime beyond that! Sounds pretty exotic doesn't it?? LOL
Now, some background....Cobalt and I have been married for 5 years now. He has custody of the kids because his ex walked out on all of them and the kids wanted to be with their dad. She didn't have anything to do with the kids really until I came into the picture and has been a bane in my side from that moment on. What does that have to do with my going back to college? Read on fellow Pixians....
The only downside to my attending college is what became known to me just last night. Cobalt's ex-wife (UGGGGGG) decided for some unknown reason to attend college as well, same place, same time, same bat channel!!!! ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGG - it is like the proverbial bad penny!!! The stomach ache that you always get from eating too many green apples!!!! The act of vomiting when you open up a carton of milk and find that it is spoiled!!!! Yeah, I know, a bit dramatic.. <sigh> ... but true! Cobalt won't hardly speak with her, and basically the communication that goes on between us for the kids sake is through me. And it is
exhausting to be pleasant and nice and perky with her, so for the most part, when I don't have to see much less speak to her my day is excellent. Becasue she is starting the same day as I am, we are going to have lots of gen. ed. classes together.
The only good thing is she is attending for totally different stuff then I am, so it will only be the gen ed classes that we will have together.
***OK... I hear Lixy in my head - "Calm...Love... Peace..."
- and if she spits on you give her a right hook to the jaw! ***
All that I am ranting about isn't new....I have had to overcome the small town she has lived here her whole life and you are the new kid in school mentality in the community. Everytime I am interested in a club, service group, school committee, she is there - or her little spies tell her, and she shows up. Now, where I thought I would be "safe" and be in a place that was totally mine (in another city), she is there again!!! I am being tested! Am I being punished for having "bad" thoughts about her??? Do I have to find my center and make peace with my enemy???
I do know this - I am strong, brave, smart and will succeed in anything that I do. I also know that she cannot control me (even though she tries). And, if she tries to sit beside me in class, I am going to move - and maybe in Speech class I will give a speech about dead-beat moms who leave their kids...... jk... lol
Thanks for listening to me..........
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