I am sitting here on Christmas Eve watching Carols by Candlelight on TV as I prepare for a busy Christmas Day.

Being a sentimental person the stirring music moves my heart and emotions. The Hallelujah Chorus is playing and it lifts me to the heights and O holy night brought tears to my eyes.

I think of my loved ones, my parents who for the first time in my life will not be with us, my internet love of 5 years who hurt me so badly but who i will always love, my dear friends at pixies and in particular one ex pixie, Miss X who has been a true and treasured friend for such a long time. A perfectly platonic but so rewarding and enriching friendship and we will meet at Easter 2004 .

Life is made of sorrow and joy and it at times such as the wonder of Christmas that you experience it all at once it seems.

I will be with my family on Christmas day as it should be. I send all you wonderful sexy and caring people the best and heartiest wishes for a wonderful and fulfilling Christmas, may it be filled with love and beauty.

God bless you all

Ian M
aka Grumble