I dont know what to do. I feel so empty and dead inside. I feel like i am going to die of a broken heart.

rzande1,

That part of your life is dead. Renew yourself by becoming involved with and engaged in something you find rewarding before you rot.

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Eudaimonia

I just can't being her friend. she says I am her best friend. This is what she says. She says she loves me and that I am the perfect guy but she just lacks the attraction that she used to have. she wants to try and get closer to me to see if it comes back. She cries about not feeling it for me. I don't know. I really wanted to marry her. I wanted to with all my heart. I freak when I think about some other guy replacing me romantically. I know I am stupid for actually waiting to see if she wants me again but the heart makes u do stupid crap I guess. So I hate to ask but I just need to know that I am a good person. I just need to know.

Listen bud,
Everyone here has told you that seeing her is a bad idea. Why aren't you listening?

she says I am her best friend- ok, you are her best friend. It doesn't mean that SHE wants to DATE you, and is in LOVE with you. Why do you want to beat your head against the wall? You DO remember Charlie Brown and Lucy pulling the football away from him don't you?

Tell me, if she loves you, why does she want to be with other guys? Because she lacks the attraction she USED to have. - YOUR words, dude. If that is the case leave her and move on. She's doesn't want to TRY and get it back, she wants to continue to USE you, and you let her.

but I just need to know that I am a good person- how will you feel like a "good person", if you try and find out from a person that is using you, and abusing you??

Never mind the abuse part, she's not abusing you..........YOU are abusing yourself.

She wants her cake and to eat it as well, looking for her Mr Perfect while keeping you dangling.

Sometimes the only way to save yourself off a burning boat is to swim through shark infested waters to safety.

Life only holds one guarantee, so stop wasting your time and hers and complete the break.

Good person? Good is as good does, not some innate sanctity, so go out and be good with someone else.

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Calm, quiet, smooth, devastating

What does she have to say?

And why don't you believe her?

She says I am a great person. She says I am the perfect combination of a guy. She says she loves me totally and completely and that i am basically her perfect mate.

Perfect mate requires a level of respect and empathy this one has not shown.

You'd be better in the middle of a pack of sharks in a feeding frenzy. It'd be honest, it'd be quick and you'd not be dragged back, and back, and back. . .

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Calm, quiet, smooth, devastating

And why don't you believe her?

Because she treats you like crap.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.

Maybe you stay because you really enjoy the drama of her abuse.

I'd say kick her to the curb and take a class in buidling self-esteem. Find yourself and find some happiness.

Only you can do it.

It starts by telling her... "No."

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