OK, I am now in a fix.
I just returned from a brief vacation, a "solo" roadtrip in my new car.
This was just "me by myself time", and I went to several places in here in Texas that I wanted to visit, play tourist, and visit people I know, meet some new ones, swim at Lake Travis. (yes the weather sucks, they closed the lake, and I am home now)
OK, to shorten this, I met a really special woman in Austin who has her own filmaking company. (videos, actually, but everyone called it movie making *shrug*)
During a little 4:30 Am pillowtalk, she asked me to appear very briefly in her current project.
Partially bare. Topless, and a with a long view of my bare backside.
There will be others in the scene, also at least partially naked, and yes there is touching, and some "suggested sex"
This is NOT a porn thing, but an "experimental" video, with real, paid actors, (including me) and crew. She appears real and reputable, and already has an intimate relationship with me, so she isn't doing some absurd "want to be in a movie?" seduction thing.
She says I can use a "stage name" and she admitted my face might not even show in the finished project.
I was feeling very... well, "special" (i.e. very sexy, satisfied, and warm, my favorite combination) at the moment, and I agreed.

Sweeties, I ALWAYS keep my word... but I am scared to death. I have done some *ahem* "home movies" that I kept for myself, no copies. But this is (maybe) going to be actually released, -probably a straight to video thing, but still...
I have been naked in front of people more times than I could possibly recount, at certain parties, at the beach and the lake, and have certainly had pictures of my boobs and bare behind taken during Carnival many times, hundreds probably, thousands possibly.
But almost all that was anonymous! (sometimes the parties are anonymous, sometimes not, but no pictures are allowed anyway) I was just another sunbather around others, or just another flasher on a blacony during Mardi Gras.
This is so different, and I am feeling scared, and frankly a little naseated.
And yes, kind of turned on and sexy, and proud that as I get further past 30 my body is still considered something worth filming.

My question is this, do I do it?

I have an almost sinful pride in always keeping my agreements, but I also know Kimmie will let me out of this if I realy want out.

It would be easier if I wasn't so conflicted about it. I have until July 27th to decide. (and try to tone up a little I think.)

HELP!!!

WW

P.S.
And before anyone asks, I will NOT share the name of the movie so you can all run out and rent it. That way I know whoever offers me advice here doen't have the ulterior motive of seeing me (partially) naked again.

W.

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I'm with Lil on this.

You only get one life and you may lie on your death bed and wish you'd done it, otherwise.


I WOULD however, try to find out as much about her and her production company etc etc as possible....ask to watch her other films, and see the script and story boarding etc for the project before you embark on it - just to make sure it's for real etc. Oh and she may be your friend, but if there is no contract, this is NOT above board, even if you've agreed not to be paid.

Oh and finally, try to dig about and check that this is not going to risk your job/RN status etc etc if it ever does come out that this is you in the film.

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Fruit flies like a banana"

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Live life with gusto. No regrets.

Therefore, if you think you will look back someday and say I wish I did that video....Conversely if you will look back and say 'what was I thinking?'

Given that your friend will let you out of the commitment, you now have a chance to re-think the decision.

......oh and i can't wait for the netflicks version (hehe!)

Thanks hon(s).
I was aware my first post was getting really long, so I didn't include every detail.
First. She is a "new friend", of just over a week's time. (We met in a women's bar in Austin.) I am not foolish, so I did a little reasearch, online and with Austin friends, including one who appeared in a previous movie.
She appears legitimate, I have seen her facilities, as limited as they are, in a small office park, and she gave me a contract to read, (I am faxing it to my NO lawyer for her to read and opine over) and sign.
I won't see the script until later, it is still being changed, but I do get to see it prior to signing.
We spent one day lazing around her place, snuggling and watching movies, including one of hers. It was very good, and not a porno. It was in black and white, had quite a bit of nudity and "strong sexual situations", but it seemed to go with the story, "advancing the story" as they say. It was a very strange story about a mentally ill lesbian undergoing treatment, and the changes her meds caused, good and bad. (I was assured it was NOT autobiographical)
She entered it in several competitions, but I don't know which ones. It was too short to be a regular movie, less than an hour.

Mmmm, what else should I checkout?

WW

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So where's MY parade?"

---Margaret Cho

Do you want your real name on the credits? I would do it - I might insist that my name not be used. Just a thought...

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