I have no way to go sit by his grave and tell him how much I miss him. It's been a month today and the pain is till so damn intense. I debated posting and opening healing wounds but this is where we started and you are the people who know how much he meant to so many of us. I just have this lump in my throat that I can't seem to swallow down today. And I needed to share the burden of my sorrow with those of you who understand.

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The practice of putting women on pedestals began to die out when it was discovered that they could give orders better from there.~ Betty Grable

If I wanted your opinion, I'd remove the duct tape and ask you for it.~ Me
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One man's dream is another man's nightmare~~~~> §¤ Lilith ¤§
~>My Scribbles<~
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((((((((Lillith)))))))) ~ I can't seem to take his names off my yahoo IM account, cause every time I open the window I think of him and our wonderful chats...... Just today I was missing him also.

I understand, I think....... Just a little bit. And I am sending you a BIG hug.

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Life is too short not to love and be loved....preferably multiple times in one night.

I think men talk to women so they can sleep with them and women sleep with men so they can talk to them. ~ Jay McInerney

(((((((((Lillith))))))))))) I did'nt get to know him being a newbie at the time, but the one pm I got from him, I just can't seem to delete.

I miss him too Lil ... in all the time, I never really got that close to him on a personal level, but always loved seeing what he would post, threads he started, odd comments here and there (not meaning odd as in strange - but as a comment made here and there) - I keep expecting to see that "I'm back" post from him ... It is hard to deal with the "I should have taken a bit of time to ...." regrets!!! But it has reminded me to "take a bit of time to ...." with others who I care about and who matter to me, even the occasional acquaintances. He was a good man with a golden heart and he is missed.

((((Lil)))))

He's still on my IM, too, osuche, & I know what you mean about thinking you'll see an "I'm back" thread, fzzy.

Life is a joke. Death is the punchline.

See, the trick is to realize that in th end, we all really do end up dead. Realizing that, then ask, did he make a difference to the world around him before he died?

I think the answer is "yes".

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On the kinkometer, my kink measures as a sine wave.

To this thread I can only add the special words that were once posted by a very good friend, Lilith.

“Just know I am here”






http://www.pixies-place.com:81/foru...read.php?t=8730

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Wow....TY PF.

I still have him on all my messengers as well and can't/don't dare delete anything. His phone message is still there and I listen to it when I feel strong enough. I can't speak...I have not been able to leave him a message anywhere cause I'm mad that I don't have forever to tell him everything I need to/should have/want to say. I wanted to share all the wonderful things to come in our lives and for him to be there to ridicule all the stupid things I will do. I would have gladly returned the favor. Damn him, I miss him.

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The practice of putting women on pedestals began to die out when it was discovered that they could give orders better from there.~ Betty Grable

If I wanted your opinion, I'd remove the duct tape and ask you for it.~ Me
<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>
One man's dream is another man's nightmare~~~~> §¤ Lilith ¤§
~>My Scribbles<~
==>Gone Shopping<== ~Just a Quickie~ *~A Celebration Vacation~* ~Surprises~ Sleeping With the Window Open
What Did You Do Today? Self Defense Class ~Short Sweet Snippets~ § Summer Spin § Story Challenge Submission Pajamas

May I ask, do you know why and how?

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Half of a set :halo:

Yes.

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The practice of putting women on pedestals began to die out when it was discovered that they could give orders better from there.~ Betty Grable

If I wanted your opinion, I'd remove the duct tape and ask you for it.~ Me
<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>
One man's dream is another man's nightmare~~~~> §¤ Lilith ¤§
~>My Scribbles<~
==>Gone Shopping<== ~Just a Quickie~ *~A Celebration Vacation~* ~Surprises~ Sleeping With the Window Open
What Did You Do Today? Self Defense Class ~Short Sweet Snippets~ § Summer Spin § Story Challenge Submission Pajamas

I am very sorry to hear this. We posted together. Not any private ones. Very sad.

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Half of a set :halo:

((((((((Lilith)))))))))
You know I am here for you.

I thank God you are here for me.

It still hurts. It's gonna be a very long time until it doesn't.

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Put me on wheels and I'll turn tricks.

Clever? Nah, I ran out of that years ago. But if you find this, let me know, k?
"The road goes ever on..." ~ Tolkien

In memory of my friend skip...
Go then, there are other worlds than these

Yes.. this will hurt for a long time...

and.. bardon my clicheness.. but I feel this fits..

The Dance......
Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared, beneath the stars above.
For a moment, all the world was right,
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye?

And now, I'm glad I didn't know,
The way It all would end,
The way It all would go,
Our lives are better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain,
But I'd of had to miss the dance.

Holding you, I held everything,
For a moment wasn't I the king?
But If I'd only known how the king would fall,
Hey who's to say, you know I might have changed It all,

And now, I'm glad I didn't know,
The way It all would end,
The way It all would go,
Our lives are better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain,
But I'da had to miss the dance.

It's my life, It's better left to chance,
I could have missed the pain,
But I'da had to miss
The dance

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I'm sorry that I did not get to know him well. One thing I've realized is that it is good to reflect on the good times, whenever you can. There was a guy that I used to work with that I liked a lot. He was fun to hang out with. He was killed in a car accident at age 34. I still have his business card in my card holder and think of him when I see it.

It's good to keep him on your yahoo account... to bump his threads, etc. The pain will diminish, and smiles will come when you see his threads on here in the future...

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