OK, I am now in a fix.
I just returned from a brief vacation, a "solo" roadtrip in my new car.
This was just "me by myself time", and I went to several places in here in Texas that I wanted to visit, play tourist, and visit people I know, meet some new ones, swim at Lake Travis. (yes the weather sucks, they closed the lake, and I am home now)
OK, to shorten this, I met a really special woman in Austin who has her own filmaking company. (videos, actually, but everyone called it movie making *shrug*)
During a little 4:30 Am pillowtalk, she asked me to appear very briefly in her current project.
Partially bare. Topless, and a with a long view of my bare backside.
There will be others in the scene, also at least partially naked, and yes there is touching, and some "suggested sex"
This is NOT a porn thing, but an "experimental" video, with real, paid actors, (including me) and crew. She appears real and reputable, and already has an intimate relationship with me, so she isn't doing some absurd "want to be in a movie?" seduction thing.
She says I can use a "stage name" and she admitted my face might not even show in the finished project.
I was feeling very... well, "special" (i.e. very sexy, satisfied, and warm, my favorite combination) at the moment, and I agreed.

Sweeties, I ALWAYS keep my word... but I am scared to death. I have done some *ahem* "home movies" that I kept for myself, no copies. But this is (maybe) going to be actually released, -probably a straight to video thing, but still...
I have been naked in front of people more times than I could possibly recount, at certain parties, at the beach and the lake, and have certainly had pictures of my boobs and bare behind taken during Carnival many times, hundreds probably, thousands possibly.
But almost all that was anonymous! (sometimes the parties are anonymous, sometimes not, but no pictures are allowed anyway) I was just another sunbather around others, or just another flasher on a blacony during Mardi Gras.
This is so different, and I am feeling scared, and frankly a little naseated.
And yes, kind of turned on and sexy, and proud that as I get further past 30 my body is still considered something worth filming.

My question is this, do I do it?

I have an almost sinful pride in always keeping my agreements, but I also know Kimmie will let me out of this if I realy want out.

It would be easier if I wasn't so conflicted about it. I have until July 27th to decide. (and try to tone up a little I think.)

HELP!!!

WW

P.S.
And before anyone asks, I will NOT share the name of the movie so you can all run out and rent it. That way I know whoever offers me advice here doen't have the ulterior motive of seeing me (partially) naked again.

W.

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I'm with Lil on this.

You only get one life and you may lie on your death bed and wish you'd done it, otherwise.


I WOULD however, try to find out as much about her and her production company etc etc as possible....ask to watch her other films, and see the script and story boarding etc for the project before you embark on it - just to make sure it's for real etc. Oh and she may be your friend, but if there is no contract, this is NOT above board, even if you've agreed not to be paid.

Oh and finally, try to dig about and check that this is not going to risk your job/RN status etc etc if it ever does come out that this is you in the film.

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Therefore, if you think you will look back someday and say I wish I did that video....Conversely if you will look back and say 'what was I thinking?'

Given that your friend will let you out of the commitment, you now have a chance to re-think the decision.

......oh and i can't wait for the netflicks version (hehe!)

Thanks hon(s).
I was aware my first post was getting really long, so I didn't include every detail.
First. She is a "new friend", of just over a week's time. (We met in a women's bar in Austin.) I am not foolish, so I did a little reasearch, online and with Austin friends, including one who appeared in a previous movie.
She appears legitimate, I have seen her facilities, as limited as they are, in a small office park, and she gave me a contract to read, (I am faxing it to my NO lawyer for her to read and opine over) and sign.
I won't see the script until later, it is still being changed, but I do get to see it prior to signing.
We spent one day lazing around her place, snuggling and watching movies, including one of hers. It was very good, and not a porno. It was in black and white, had quite a bit of nudity and "strong sexual situations", but it seemed to go with the story, "advancing the story" as they say. It was a very strange story about a mentally ill lesbian undergoing treatment, and the changes her meds caused, good and bad. (I was assured it was NOT autobiographical)
She entered it in several competitions, but I don't know which ones. It was too short to be a regular movie, less than an hour.

Mmmm, what else should I checkout?

WW

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Do you want your real name on the credits? I would do it - I might insist that my name not be used. Just a thought...

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Here's the question that is relevant that I asked on every sexual ethics board when a woman decides to post nude pics on the internet.

Are you comfortable with me fapping to it? What about someone creepier?

Are you prepared if your family finds out about it?

Personally, I think it would be kind of fun. Especially if I used a fake name. I love using fake names. It's a fun game we can all be in on!

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Well sir that seems to be someone else's problem.

I agree. Making a creative, bawdy sobriquet or alias that describes your character or personality is half the fun.

Like, "Plenty Uptopp," or "Letha Weapons," or "Britney Rears."

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Since you can use a stage name, what about wearing a wig and maybe glasses or something.

I might suggest that you make keeping your face out of the shot part of the contract, & go for it, with the stage name as well...if you can maintain your anonymity (& maybe your job as well), & still get the ego stroke that comes from knowing people are seeing your bod, why the hell not go for it?

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I would be careful doing this. A lot of Porn production companies will have a more legitimate production company as a cover. It is also works as a good way to find people to work in their porn movies. They get a woman in for an audition then tell them they did very well but aren't right for the part but they do have something in another movie. I do realize you are smart enough not to be sucker into anything like this. Have your lawyer make sure the contract specifies the movie you will be working on and the production company it is for. That it not just a stanard release contract. I might also be a good idea to have them put in there that your face won't be showen (as has been suggested here by others). If this is legitimate she should have no problems with this. You might even offer to have your lawyer make these changes. It will save you from having to send it back to him to check again. If this all works out make sure when you do show up keep it stricty business. Don't slip off for a quicky with her or someone else there just show up and do what the part calls for.

P.S. WW I hope you don't take this as me thinking you are naive or dumb. From your post I can tell you are an intelligent woman. The thing is people who are out to take advantage of other people know what they are doing and have many way to do it. One thing that sort of sends up a flag for me is she brought this up during pillow talk (which implies to me it happened either presex or postsex) a time that would make me think she would be thinking how good you would be having sex on film not about an art type film she was doing.

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Please hon, I never meant to suggest I was insulted by anyone's suggestions on this matter. If I replied that I had already thought of that particular problem, I was just sharing information. It also let me know I was on the right path.
All the advice here was and is helpful to me. I am still researching, and waiting for my lawyer to fax me back.
I remain torn about doing this.
Well, torn might be too strong, but a tad conflicted at the very least.
It's exciting to consider being on camera, and frankly the idea of being partially nude is a huge turn on. I blush as I type this, but I am actually a little worried that I will be so turned on I will "go too far" while filming.

I have learned more about my role. It is more involved than I first thought, and I might even have lines!!! (Yes, it now appears my face may be seen, but I have been assured that if I so desire, via makeup no one will recognize me)
I am to play a friend of the main character, a bi woman (big stretch for me, huh?) who supports herself by taking "paid lunchtime dates" with businessmen, i.e. she's a "part time hooker". The woman accompanies my character on one of her "dates" for a wealthy man who wants a 3sum.
This may change, I am told. It might be smaller, it might be bigger. I will read it before signing in any case.

If I minded people "fapping" to my image, I never would have joined Pixies. (yes, my face is covered in my pics, but you know what I mean)

It is already agreed that I will be using a stage name, but it has to be a "legitimate" name, not a "porn name". There is an actor's registry of names in use so I have to submit several different names to see what is available.

Yes, this was brought up post (and pre) sex. It's hard to explain, I guess.
Between two women, encounters tend to be very lengthy, often over several hours time, so there is quite a bit of pillow talk, cuddling, drinking and even snacking. (pinot noir with chocolate chip cookies that night) Lots of things get talked about. She said some very nice things about my body, and asked if I had ever been filmed.
I am not quite so insecure to be shocked at asking to be filmed or photographed, this is just the first time I was asked to "act" in a "real" movie. I do not lack financial resources, and so I am not "deperate for a role" as so many of the actresses Booger mentioned. If I'm told I'm not "right for the role", I shrug, kiss Kimmie a "thanks for asking" kiss and go on my way.
This is a lark, and not much more.
Funny thing, I am less concerned about being recognized than I was when living amongst old friends and family friends in NO. Texas has been a huge "new life" for me in countless ways, maybe this is meant to be part of my new life here.
(I am planning on staying for quite a while longer.)




WW

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I'd say do it and make the common sense decisions that you already make everyday, safe sex, if something in contract rubs you the wrong way, cross it out or discuss the specifics with your friend. Contracts are supposed to protect all individuals so don't sign if something smells fishy and renegotiate. Most of all, Enjoy that new experience sweetie. It's surreal being a part of a movie or photo set/shoot. Not everyone gets to enjoy this in their whole lifetime! Just be safe................... we want to see more of you around here!

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