Anyone who has experienced the truly painful loss of love in their lives will understand.
I would greatly appreciate any and all comments on this, I am really looking to know that I was not alone in feeling the things that I did during this time in my life.
Thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this document, just the oppurtunity to post this has brought me a small measure of solice.

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Old enough to know better; young enough not to give a F**k.
"The value of a man resides in what he gives and not in what he is capable of receiving."
Albert Einstein

Yes.

It stays like that until you open yourself to hurt again.

It takes time to step beyond the selfishness of "I'm hurting, so why is the

world outside still going on?"

When the time is right, you'll put the gloom behind you.

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Calm, quiet, smooth, devastating

spud1725,

Take it one day at a time, healing takes time. If the darkness threatens to overwhelm you, seek help.

Good luck

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Eudaimonia

Spud1725,

You're not alone in what you've experienced. I've lost a love I held most dearly to the senseless act of a stranger who'd given up. He took my girlfriend with him. It's not something you ever forget, and it's not something you ever get over. 20 years later, it's still with me.

But I've learned to love again. Twice. The healing does happen, but it happens slowly. When you think about it, it's much like a physical wound. Cuts don't heal overnight. Gradually, layers and layers form over the cut until it's no longer open. There's a scar, it feels funny when you touch upon it and the memories of why it's there surface.

The pain will diminish and you'll learn to love again. If you need help getting through the darkness, find someone to talk to.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.