The past year has been nothing BUT change for me, some of it good and some of it bad. I've had to grow up and realize that the world is a lot bigger and more painful than I thought, and outside of school there was so much I DIDN'T know. I am humbled.

Besides experiencing life on my own, which was sometimes terrifying and thrilling at the same time all on it's own, I had to break it off with the person I love more than anyone in the world for reasons beyond my control. That has scarred me deeply. I'm not over him (you don't get over someone you've loved for years in a matter of months), and I don't know if I ever will be fully over him. He affected my life profoundly in ways both positive and negative. I think sometimes I like to block out the negative so my first real love doesn't look quite as tarnished in my mind as it does in reality.

I've learned to see the world as beautiful and mysterious as well as sharp and unforgiving (just the reality of life!).

I feel like in the past year or so I have been forced to become a stronger and more stable person. To survive in life, you have to be both.

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It's a BOY!!