Thank you everyone for all the advice =) it means alot that some people actually out there care about the suffering (i guess) of others..

And fzzy.. I think i went through despair and acceptance the same damn day.. along with the help of my good buddy Cap'n M. *grins* very drunk i laid in bed after another run in with her at her work (food lion) shoulda known better than going to that one.. but hey its right down the damn street.. and i didnt feel like going across town.. anyways was already half buzzed up.. needed more coke so went to the store bumped into her yadda yadda i ended up in bed that night bawling like a fucking baby... wanted to end it .. yadda and thought to myself.. WTF.. what the hell is wrong with me.. i'm going to end it just cause of some girl that didn't really give a damn about me in the first place? fuck her i got business to take care of.. and basically thats how i feel now.. I got shit i need to do with my own damn self instead of worrying about her any..

I do suppose it helps when ya find another one tho... Rawr =) really helps

hugs go a lonnnnggg way.. and kisses are like miracles

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