I understand.... more than I wish I did..

A month full of yesterdays... that is how his loss hits me.. as if it were only yesterday.. and that I missed all the opportunities.. I think of Skip often... I think of James even more... both different sides of the very same loving dear man.

I have him on my yahoo list.. I still send him a message from time to time.. just to put my feelings into words.... eventually.. I am sure I will attempt that.. and yahoo won't let me.. until then.. I will continue. I also have the location of a personal ad he put up that last week... and his picture there... I go there.. to read.. and think of what a blessing he would have been to any woman who honestly deserved him.

I miss my friend... but he didn't leave this earth before teaching me some important lessons... and because of him.. I find myself taking more chances... I thank him for that... I will always hold a special place in my heart for him...

*shrug*
sure...........