I've kept cool but my face is easy to read. My gf just looks at my face and asks, "what are you thinking?" If I answer "nothing" you kinda know where the conversation goes from there. I don't like being jealous of her friends which are mostly guys. She says her friendship with them isn't like that and I'm not an insecure guy but you can't keep your head clear with logic all the time.

I don't want to be at some party have a few drinks and then be branded the asshole because I blew up at some innocent bit of flirtation that I would do and would usually never bat an eye at.

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Deep into that darkness peering,
long I stood there, wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams
no mortal ever dreamed before.