LarryL, it's impossible for you to "choose" the wrong lifestyle. You are what you are. Gay, straight, bi....doesn't matter. Live your life without regrets. The years that are past are past, and you made the right decisions for yourself at the times that you made them. Now that you are discovering (or rather, accepting) this side of yourself now, you can continue to make the right decisions for yourself. Just be true to yourself when you do. It's not something to fear, just another facet of yourself that you haven't come to fully recognize yet. You're a great guy with a hell of a good head on his shoulders. I know you'll take the right steps to become the "you" that you need to be.