Ranger,

Grab hold of you ass as tight as you can and don't let go. No matter what the fuck happens, you must not die! Go be with someone, anyone, you can trust whether you know them or not.

If you review a few of my recent posts and threads, you will see that the people here really care. These people really care and will help you. The main thing is don't die. Some see this as a curse, others consider it a blessing, but, you have many years ahead of you to be on earth in this sometimes wonderful and sometimes stinking life. Don't die.

The Catch 22: If you think you are going insane, you aren't.

I am nearly 53 and to this very day I live with deamons that have been wtih me for years. I have sad thoughts and feelings that are exactly the same as they were when I was 8 or 9 years old.

I don't know why life is this way. The damned truth is that life is nothing. Life isn't aware of you or me. Life does not even know that it exists. Life is not a being. It's not a thing. People are what count. People make life what it is.

Larry