It ain't easy Larry. It ain't easy at all.

Some connections are much easier to say "it's wild and crazy flirting", while others are only nondetrimental because of the distance.

Like Lilith said, it's not the presence of said feelings...it's whether or not you choose to act upon them and how. And that's something no one else can answer for you. Sorry I'm of absolutely no help...but I'm glad you are still around.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.