I don't think you are crazy BamaKyttn. A 4-5 y/o child doesn't know what rape is, let alone sex and whether they never want to have it! This memory that you have is highly suspect and must have a basis. You say the words so succinctly that you've had to have at least heard them spoken and understood them in their correct context at that age. It's worth looking into if for nothing else, to at least find out why, at 4 or 5, you knew what sex and rape was and why you knew.

I'm a little leary of trying to recall memories (especially extremely hurtful ones) through hypnosis. The human brain protects us through suppression. The power of suggestion through hypnosis is often times too powerful for our brain to let us differentiate an actual memory to a suggested one. I fear that some questions can actually cause a person to "recall" something that might not have happened or can change the actuality of the happening.

There have been many cases (not unlike yours) brought to light with the aid of hypnosis. Several have turned out to be misfires in that, the person "recalling" their sexual abuse and abuser had been lead down a wrong path that the psycologist assumed was the course of the matter. One question led to another in the assumption that this was a sure-fire case of abuse, before even getting to the bottom of it all. When these people were "awakened", they had memories that weren't true, but "felt so real" that they had to have happened!

How can we assure this won't ever happen to us? I don't know! But I'd surely research hypnosis, and especially cases of mistaken recalls, before I went under myself!

Either way though, if it turns out to be a case of abuse or just a misfire recall...lives can be ruined!

I wish you the best hun! Sending good thoughts your way!

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