Diagnosis:
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I do not know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.
You were born somewhere around territory of modern Jugoslavia approximately on 1225.
Your profession was chemist, alchemist, poison manufacturer.
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Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
You were sane practical person, materialist with no spiritual consciousness. Your simple wisdom helped weaker and poor.
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Lesson, that your last past life brought to present:
Your lesson -- to conquer jealousy and anger in yourself and then in those, who will select you as their guide. You should understand that these weaknesses are caused by fear and self-regret.
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Now you remember?

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.