its not like he cant watch two girls together, im bi-curious but that doesnt mean im gonna be a big ol' attention whore and kiss other girls just for guys to gawk at. Its cheating with permission and we've both agreed that it is (to us) I dont believe in double standards either, so if i had to get with a girl he would have to get witha guy, thats just how i am. I dont think is hould ever feel cheated or that im doing it for someone else, when it would be for me but how would he know? I dont thinkt hats showing any appreciation and we've also had the talk about the threesome saying that both of us dont want it and the main reason why he was watching lesbians was because he doesnt like seeing dick when hes trying to get off and thats fine to me but it cant be pushed in my face like that im very sensitive about it cause im pretty sure i have some closet bisexuality going on anyways and i want to be all he needs and hes starting to make me feel that way just now. Its all fine now, he compromised for me so now i know he really does care about me, andi knew before but im new to the whole "weve been together for 7 months , 19 and 20, were engaged and its fucking scary sometimes" phase. We're gonna end up watching porn sooner or later, but right now im not comfortable with it and i mean i dont know what im doing anyways ive never been in a real relationship and hes the first guy i ever had sex with and i cant help but dissect everything that goes on sometimes.

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