Silentsoul,
I had a very dear friend growing up who had a remarkably similar circumstance. In the end it was too much for him and now he's gone. I do know what the kind of pain you've experienced can do to a person. I wish that there had been more I could have done for him, his memory will always be with me. If you ever need a caring shoulder or a map to a minefield just reach out, cause I will be there!

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The subconscious is a state in which reality is just a visitor!

A smile can make your whole day.

"I don't mind the sun sometimes, the images it shows, I can taste you on my lips and smell you in my cloths..." ~Pepper.