hey...i know where you are coming from. I dont have any advice for you, as i am in somewhat of the same situation, but not married. For the past few years i have been interested in sucking a dick. Just the thought of it makes me really horny, but i dont know hwo to go about finding the "right person" to experiment with. I dont know if i am bi, because the thought of anything more then kissing or dick-sucking just doesnt do it for me.

I just wanted to let you know that i know how you feel about wanting to give a blowjob, and let me know how everything goes. You can PM me, or get me on AIM if you want. (pm for my screenname)