Lixy,

Well I have no money because I was stupid and went to college and graduated with an engineering degree last May.

I do have a part time job at a pizza place making $5.15/hr with no hope of a raise or promotion. In fact, I am begining to think that my calling in life is to wash dishes for a living becuase every time I get my hopes up about a job I only wind up getting let down.

The only comfort I find in this is that in six months I will be homeless and on my first day of being homeless I will kill myself. My mind has been made up and the die has been cast. Don't try preventing it becuase there is no return from being homeless. It is not like somone will walk by and after giving me change realize I am probably the most brialliant mind in the city. They will only see a smelly bum.

Besides I refuse to live in a world where I get picked on all through out high school and the only think that kept me going was that one day I would be a success while the stupid jocks wound up working at Walmart. Fuck, now I am the one with a shitty minimum wage job just months form being thrown out onto the street and they are the ones with good jobs, wives, families and getting to drive the newest SUV's. The worst part is that I see them everyday at my job and some of them recognize me and say "Hey aren't you that guy I used to beat up in high school? Damn we all expected you would be a doctor or a scientist by now what happned?"

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Well sir that seems to be someone else's problem.