You are all right. I keep letting him toy with my head, and I cant keep going on like this.

I went out to someone he used to knows' party last night, I had such a good time, I met so many new people. I needed to get home so I had to phone him to get hold of a mutual friend to take me, and while asking him to pass the phone on he toyed with my head again. It obviously bothered him that I had a good time without him.

You are also right about the guilt I would feel if I did do anything, now I think about it, i would feel awful after the original satisfied feeling passed.

I wont lie, I miss him so much, but he risked our relationship for a 15 year old girl who has nothing to offer him, he made his bed, now he can lie in it. Thank you all so much!