Welcome aboard SSpree ... as you can tell from the responses ... 5 years age difference at a younger age does make a big difference ... in fact, it makes a HUGE difference ... you are an adult, old enough to vote and serve your country, old enough to make most decisions (legally) that have to do with your future .... at 14 (and 3 months from her 15th birthday, she is still just 14!!!) she has a lot of things still to happen in her life yet before she can legally make any of those decisions.

I presume that if her parents know about this relationship, they are not very comfortable about it!! She may be everything you are looking for and exceptional for her age, but there are still some things that are learned only through the passage of time and she has not lived long enough for that to happen ....

Some cultures find this age difference acceptable, but in most countries that are "modern" it is considered illegal for much of anything to happen between the two of you ... in my opinion, that's exactly how it should be .... you can be her friend, but with the way you feel, I'd do so from a very great distance ....

You have now determined what it is you are looking for ... but from my experience, that is VERY likely to change a great deal over the next 5-10 years as well ... give yourself time to keep looking ... at almost 19, you are not really at a stage in life yet to need to be finding a perfect match ... just a fun one! Best of luck to you!!!