Sounds to me like you are already doing what you want and want the blessings to make yourself feel better about it. Sorry to be so blunt but you asked and I don't lie.

If you need reassurance and a comfirmation that it's ok......you should talk to your hubby about your feelings and fantasies. He might even agree that this is all in fun and no harm no foul.......and he might want to venture into it on his own as well. Are you ready for "what's good for the goose is good for the gander"?

From your pic posting threads........I'd say he's a rather open guy.....and you might just be jeopardizing this openess with your secrets! On the other hand......you know him best...and if you can live with yourself (you seem like you might be feeling guilty) and it really won't harm what you've built with your hubby.......keep it to yourself and just don't get all wrapped up in it to the point of wrecking a perfectly good marriage!

Best of luck hun! Hope this helps a bit! And.....Welcum to Pixies if I haven't said it already!

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