Airhog, just relax. It will probably get better as you change your way of thinking. Stop being so insecure! This is the sort of situation where you just need to sit back and have a little faith.

And who's to say sleeping with a man would have to mean you received anal sex? As with all sexual encounters, you set your own limits. Maybe you do his ass, maybe you just leave it at blowjobs. It's your ass, your decision!

So just sit tight, relax, and be happy for her!
Just make sure you talk about it when she gets back. Let her know that you missed her and were a little anxious - but don't give her the impression you're to insecure or don't trust you.

Good luck, let us know how it turns out!
CasperTG

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