Lixy - I've been under the weather here of late, & not able to check in for a while...so sorry to hear about your bro, but it sounds like you have sorted out all your feelings well, & you are well on your way to achieving some closure...I lost my own bro some years ago, at least he & I were finally becoming friends after years of sibling rivalry...and I have also experienced my wife's difficulties with her own "black sheep" brother...so here's a hug for strength & support...Green Day is a great choice for the situation...& I promise I won't pinch your ass while you're trying to sing...well, maybe I'll just cop a feel

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