When James- that was SkipThisOne's name, killed himself it fucked me up. He left behind children who loved him and have had to live a life knowing their parent was in so much pain they chose to die instead of staying with them. I think that is sort of hard to forgive because there is no closure.

In high school I took pills, lots of them. I was in physical and emotional pain and I just wanted it to stop. I'm not sure I wanted to die but I damn sure did not care if I did. I don't tell many people. I'm ashamed.

But I do know how it feels to just want to check out. If the meds are not working, get better fucking meds.

You take care of people who depend on you and you see things that make it so hard to have faith. But you must, and deep down you have that faith that tomorrow might be better. I know you do because you decided to talk and not act. Keep talking. We'll keep listening.

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The practice of putting women on pedestals began to die out when it was discovered that they could give orders better from there.~ Betty Grable

If I wanted your opinion, I'd remove the duct tape and ask you for it.~ Me
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