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Originally Posted by Fangtasia

Yep moods can suck, but never ever would I contemplate checking out, its selfish and leaves behind a wake of anguish and pain

I watched my Mum suffer and struggle every day to hold onto her life, it annoys me when people who have life just throw the damn thing away! What a waste, yeah I mean sometimes life fucken sux, but you just don't know when the turning point may come, check out, and you will never know.

Sorry (well no I'm not really) but suicide is something I get riled up about. They are selfish people, and I tend to avoid those as they bring you heartbreak.

You and others in the same spot, need to just hang on to the good things, think of those you leave behind if you went ahead with 'pulling the trigger'. Imagine the world of pain you will be opening up for them, your loved ones, with you gone could end up feeling the same and also pull the trigger. If you were here and they checked out first, how would you feel?? Then stop and relaise that how you feel is what you will be putting them through.....

If the drugs don't work, go get different drugs!

Hanging on Fang, believe me. I'm (mostly) of the same mind as regards selfishness etc, but doing the job I do I see the other side of this a lot. AKA, where my head is right now, and where it's been on more than one occasion before. Thing is, at the moment I can verbalise how I feel, which in a bizarre way helps me cope.

If I couldn't do that, or be able to vent in a totally anonymous way here (well, not totally, given you a one or two others here know [of] the "real" me) then I'm not entirely sure I could manage through these dark spells. Part of my job is risk assessment of people who feel exactly as I do right now - at the moment, I would find mine quite acceptable, whereas in the past at times like this I wouldn't have. Does that make sense? Maybe not - my descriptive abilities suck at the moment too….