Everyone thinks about it eventually.. but I am not like that really.... because of a memory or dream or thought or whatever it is.... its jumbled... and from when I was little and I don't know and don't want to know... its just something I am not gonna do.... I am afraid of whatever I have locked from myself... because if its bad enough I have to lock it away in the recess of my mind I don't think I want to know... I just hope I am wrong and its not what I think it is or if its as bad as I think it is... :-/....