All night i tried to get some woman in to bed every knock back in my mind was because i was a fag and they knew it. So i just got drunk
Not a good day at work i was told i looked like death warmed up
But at least my boss asked no questions .i spent all day avoiding
The offices where Danny worked (ok Danny was 6ft 2 lean blue eyes Short dark hair kissable lips and a deep sexy voice) at lunch i ran into
Danny or to be more precise we collided went down him on top of me
He jokingly said” did i have guys all ways falling for me” (flash) my
Mind goes in to melt down i scramble up and run to the toilet (duh like
He can't follow me). I burst in to tears another knock to my so called
Self-image Danny came in saying he was sorry for upsetting that he was
Not trying to chat me up it was just a joke an that just because he is gay
He doesn’t throw him self at every guy he meets. What he's gay o he
Can tell then like a dam bursting open it all came out that how i was turned on By watching guys how i try to deny it by sleeping around
With any woman i could we talked for half an hour i cannot remember
Most of the conversation but one think stays with me till this day i when
he said “it dose not matter if you are gay or not you are still your self”
thats when i fell in love with him we never got together other than as
freinds but he was there for me when i needed some one to be a guide and a light when in the dark.
p.s. i still compare guy i meet to him

alltho this hapend along time ago ten years or so it was my first
step to who iam today
than you for the support and for alowing me to unburden myself
i have been in denile resently about my happyness and altho i
am comfortable with my sexuality i have been hideing from what
i whent thru this year and only got found out by the gum clinic
therapist when i had to see him after my hiv test even when you
test as negative they like you to see there shrink who put me in
touch with my therapist