Sorry i've not been on very much at all, even less than i was before *sigh*

My youngest son is going to put me in an early grave, the last few weeks i have been living each day stressed, severely pissed, worried, bawling my eyes out, angry, sad, sobbing and many others inbetween and well i feel like i'm living in an emotional wringer! Though this has been going on for longer, but it has got worse lately....

I'm about at my limit today, i feel like a powder keg with a match a few millimeters away.

I do not know what else to do with this kid of mine, i love him with all my heart but at this time i really dont like him very much, if that makes sense.

The open disregard and defiance he is dishing out.....shit i dunno...i cant even put it into words...

Sorry guys, i needed to vent, hasnt helped a great deal, but even a bit is better than nothing. My mind is in turmoil.....i needed a shoulder is all

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