As OF said, my dreams change as time goes by. What I once thought I wanted more than life itself is not something that I would accept if offered. I'm a different man now, and want other things. Sometimes I still sit and wonder what I want to be when I grow up, and there are times when I have a feeling I'm headed towards or away from it. And when I hear the phrase "I'll know it when I see it", I think it doesn't really apply as much as "I saw it and I knew it".

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.