Lou - thanks for your kind words, you really are wonderful ((hugs)).

I appreciate what you're saying about the difference between online/real life friends - I know you're right. I just appreciate it that you've been so kind and wrote back to me.

My folks aren't emotionally able to support me, but at the same time they are dismissive of my problems as being a 'phase' despite me struggling now for the best part of 14 years. So I've actually given over talking to them about it as it's not worth the blank looks and 'pull yourself together' speeches when I do see them/hear from them.

The only partisan person in my life right now is the psych I'm seeing who gives me unbiased advice, we haven't got round to talking 'relationships' yet so I think it might be worth doing so when I next see them.

Unfortunately I lost touch with most of my friends when I was 18 and now most of them are living away or not close enough for me to meet up with and chat - I don't really have a 'best' female friend anymore. God, reading this back makes me see what a sad, pathetic idiot I really am .

Anyhoo - I will try my hardest to sort something out. Hopefully they'll lock me up before they lock my other half up instead and that would solve all our problems



cavey
xx