I don't know that my drive has changed, but yes...my appetite has. My cravings are so much stronger and for things that I've probably always been interested in but afraid to admit (even to myself). I think that as I'm getting older & more comfortable with who I am, I feel more able to express that side of me.

That having been said...chain me to the wall & make me watch you pleasure yourself.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.