I left an incredibly stressful job because I was collapsing inward. I think I aged ten additional years in the last two at that job, and things were physically breaking down. I was getting migraines & yes...my wang was not easily hugified by Mrs. WI's strenuous & persistent efforts.

I'm the kind of person who's mind never stops, so meditating is very difficult for me if it doesn't include some kind of activity to distract me. If I don't pass out the minute I close my eyes...I lay awake for hours with my mind spinning. Good thoughts as well as bad. I've tried reciting a verse over & over again. I've tried standard relaxation techniques to pinpoint where I store my tension, and recently I've been attempting to get a working knowledge of Tai Chi so I can go to a class & not look like a retarded ballerina on rollerskates.

I've considered going back to martial arts, but it's been a couple of years since I've done it...and I know I'll be very hard on myself when I see how soft I've let myself get. And quite frankly...I don't need that frustration right now.

I suggest getting your shapely butt back to the gym so you can blow off some steam & get some endorphins pumping. And taking everyone's advice & applying it in a way only you know how to your life.

And of course...don't be shy in reaching out to your friends.

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Though I am different from you,
We were born involved in one another.

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.

Complete surrender should not just come at moments in which one faces overwhelming odds, but in the calm when it seems one is personally in complete control of one's life.