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Originally Posted by Belial
Are you addicted to porn? Could you stop whenever you want? Do you watch it because the opportunity is there, or because you really want to? Do you masturbate out of habit? When you're not especially aroused?
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I don't consider myself addicted to it, no. Highly interested in it, yes. I'm a sexual person, so hey.
Most of the reading material I buy and collect are erotica, which is a broad umbrella that porn fits underneath. For most pedestrian-minded people, "erotica" these days probably begins and ends with Jenna Jameson. They probably wouldn't know who Richard Kern, Audacia Ray or Dave Naz is, and probably wouldn't care. So then, to say if it's an "addiction" really becomes a matter of viewpoints. I think I'm pretty vanilla, but someone else might think I'm a bonafide freak.
To me, being addicted means being wanton and rampant in the area of your focus, to the detriment of all else. My tastes in porn are pretty niched. I like big titty porn but that doesn't mean I go out and buy every big titty porn mag and dvd out there, not caring if I paid my rent a week late. I have scruples.
Stopping and starting the getting into porn or whatever is irrevelant to me. I've accepted my sexual nature as a part of myself, so it's not even "turned off." I would say I'm naturally in a state of some sort of "sexual thought/think" about 75% of the time. It could be on the level of just reading a book to doing my art/thinking of something creative on up to wanting to straight-up fuck.
I watch porn because I want to and it's my pleasure.
I'll masturbate when I'm in the mood...or if I'm really wound up sexually and I need to take the edge off and I'm not with a willing partner or I don't feel like being bothered by the dynamics of having another person around to think about. Like, when you're feeling sexual energy, there's a giving, sharing "love" feeling and then there's a selfish, politically incorrect "lust" feeling. Sometimes that lust feeling is better satisfied by yourself. I've never just done it out of habit or because I'm bored and need something to do. I need to be aroused in some form or fashion, by something I love or feel affection to.