Damn I swear I cant believe how nasty our conversation has gotten. My last statement ever to her is this. "And just so you know I am sorry for every single time I hurt you and for this entire thing today. I know that will mean nothing to you now but maybe later. I really didnt mean any of this. It is just an excalationg argument and it seems tempers won. Well have a good life. I with you all the best and true love and happiness." We really got nasty at arguing but it was a match to see who could be worse. Basically that last statement i feel clears my conscience of everything I said and lets her know how I feel. Well it may not mean anything now but who knows maybe down the line it will to her. I really do hope she finds happiness and love. I know it wont be with me but I hope who she does find it with will make her happy and be good for her. Thank you for listening goodbye.