I swear i am normally such a tough as nails guy with emotions but omg i just cant stop crying over her. I am so heartbroken over her it can not be put into words. I just feel so empty inside over her. She was everything to me. My one true love. I loved her so much and i put up with so much because of that. I really thought I was going to marry her. I did so badly and I never gave up hope. :'(