Finding someone new is gonna be hard. I usually work in some type of construction. I just lost my last job a week or so ago which was hanging gutters. Any type of construction leaves me working with a bunch of guys. I've been thinking about getting a job at like target or wal mart, they've always got a bunch of cuties working there. Target does drug testing which is a good thing since anyone who does drugs is not an option for me. The only problem is that the only thing they usually have openings for is night stockers. Being a night stocker wouldn't really be an option since I have NA meetings to go to. I have enough trouble going to them as it is and that's when I'm already awake. If I had to wake up early just to go to a meeting, I'd more than likely miss almost all of them. That's just not an option. I don't really want to start dating someone in NA because there's a good chance that they could relapse. If I was with someone who relapsed, I'd most likely either relapse with them or become an enabler. Neither of which is a option. Basically I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I need a job and construction usually pays better than target or god forbid a fast food place. But working construction, I'm never going to meet someone. Working somewhere else isn't going to pay enough and most likely keep me from going to meetings. Dating someone in NA is dangerous because of the risk of a relapse.

It doesn't really matter right now, I'm only 69 days clean and I'm not ready for a relationship quite yet. Sure I'd like to get laid but I'm not a one night stand type of guy. Basically for right now, I'm just destined to be lonely. Which sucks big time. Anyway, thanks for reading and your suggestions.

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