I have no idea what to say and I can't even imagine the hell you are going through (the mind never stops thinking and worrying I'm sure). Please know that we are all here for you and if it were possble, I'd pack up and come take care of you and the kids while you recuperate. "hugs"

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I like the bed I'm sleeping in, just like me it's broken in; it's not old -- just older.
Like a favorite pair of torn blue jeans, this skin I'm in it's alright with me; it's not old -- just older.....Bon Jovi