Thanks guys.. nice to know that I am not crazy..

Yes... Dr. Lilith.. i think you are very wise. Mr. Perfect is certainly not going to come knocking on my door until I give directions. Actually.. I have been pondering that abit lately.. oh yes.. it is definete that there is a large part of me that misses all that a relationship would have to offer... thus making part of me want such a thing to occur... BUT then.. there is another part of me.. the logical part that realizes that with all I have going on in my life as a single parent, employee, daughter, sister, friend, etc.. that I am not so sure that I have the energy left over for all the "demands" of a relationship. So... until I have that straightened out in my own head.. then I know I am not ready.