See this is what I truely hate. I was a good boy friend to my ex for over a year. What did she do? She cheated on me repeatedly and treated me like I was some socially destroying secret. I did everything for her and all I got back was abuse. I totally took that personally like it was all my fault and that I am some sort of disease. After all that I just dont want to go through that hell again so I just get so bitter about all of this. Not to mention it was my first relationship. What also discourages me is how all my friends have amazing relationships and yet I cannot get shit.