My suggestion is to get into a anger management class or group therapy...in addition to one of those, I would suggest family therapy (with everyone, even the kids). If after some time in therapy, the therapist thinks you should go on meds and refers you to a psychiatrist, then so be it. But for someone with a drug history, I would be hesitant to go straight to psychotropic meds.

First you have to look at your behaviors and those patterns, and if any of those abusive or maladaptive coping mechanisms are still present. If you are still on any illegal drugs or alcohol, you won't be able to overcome nything.

The best idea is conjunctive therapy and support. This is not something that can be done on ur own, so make sure to make use of your resources. In my exerpience, the people who survive are the ones who recognize their resources and support system, then make use of it all.

If that means going away for a while to a rehab center or some sort of inpatient care, then so be it...sometimes getting to a neutral environment away from triggers can help. However, take the other options first.

Good luck.

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