lmao - well I've been getting help with all this since like 8th grade and according to all the doctors, I AM nuts! To be honest, every dr. I've ever seen has eventually come to the point where they just don't know what to do for me. I'm such an extreme case in SOOOOOO many different areas of psychology that no one knows what to with for me. I'm in the process now of trying to find someone new. Another big problem is that I've educated myself so much about psychology itself that the shrinks out there just to make money, I'll fuck with them just to throw me out because they will never do me any good.

I don't know how many of you know the conditions in which treatment is handled now a days but for those that don't and are interested, listen up.

If the average person with a diagnosed mental disorder (anything from mild depression to all the shit I have) were to go in to talk to someone about how they feel in hopes of getting some type of treatment, this is how it would go. You would go in, wait forever and a day, be rushed back into some corner office (for privacy), in which the dr. would ask you all the questions of psych 101.
Do you think your depressed, have you ever thought about suicide, if so do you just think about it or plan something, if you planned something, what did you plan, what do you do on your average day, what kind of diet/eeating habbits do you have, do you do any drugs, if so what kinds and how often, what is your sleep schedule like, if you've had trouble sleeping, how long has this been going on.
As you're answering all these questions they'll be jotting down abbreviated answers to the questions. After which, THAT doctor will leave the room go talk to someone who's never even seen me. Before they leave to come back in and see you, they've already decided on the treatment. If that treatment is a medicine then it'll be narrowed down into a group of just a few medications. This is all before the actual doctor in charge has ever even seen my face.
Nowadays most dr's think enough pills will fix anything (WRONG!!!!) so they're much more likely to try every pill ever made before they suggest sending you to a specialist which is very expensive and that dr doesn't get a dime of it. So anyway, the dr in charge will come in, do all of a 5 minute interrogation before finding out what meds you've already been on to narrow down that predecided list of drugs. Once that's been done he tells the other doc to write the script, shakes your hand and you never see him again. If you come back later, it'll be the same damn thing just with a different head doctor.

That is the treatment possibilities of today, a world where a simple piece of printed paper is more valuable than life itself. Those are the people in charge of helping those in need of hope. Those are the people who leave people like me feeling that they'd rather be messed up in the head rather than risk going through THAT and getting ever more messed up. That kind of treatment is NOT capable of helping me. Frankly, I can't see how it helps anyone but the fat-cats with constantly filled wallets.

Sorry about that folks, it's just that this kind of treatment is a real hot button topic of mine and I just had to get it off my chest.